Yee-haw

This morning has been boring. All of my fun stuff has happened in the past few days and today is kinda a chill day. I should be doing my econ homework, but thats boring so of course I decided to stop after doing it for alike an hour. Ill get back to it later…(maybe).

\Anywho, this morning started off with a banana and 2 cups of coffee with skim milk and hazelnut creamer. Sorry no pictures, but the banana looked a lot like a banana. Honestly.

I actually wasnt hungry but I knew I was headed out for a run sometime before I would eat again, so I put some steel cut oats on the stove and played on the computer till they were done. Im steel cut out retarded, I cant seem to do them right. Ah well. They taste good after many many minutes and many many times adding MORE water cuz they stick to the bottom of my pan.

Ici:

 At the last minutes I threw in a banana, walnuts, blueberries, and brown sugar. The walnuts softened up, and I like crunch in my oatmeal, so on top I threw some more walnuts and some honey bunches of oats.

Then I headed out for a 4 miler. Yesterday my coach kicked my ass doing track workouts, and since I hadn’t done track in a while I am SO sore today. Owie. I didnt even take my watch with me on my run because I knew it would be slow. It was difficult, but whatever, I did it.

 Now Im importing new country CD’s Ive accumulated (hence the title). I love country, my momma’s from Oklahoma

Hopefully see you guys after dinner!

Ciao, bellas!

Intuitive Eating

Im a horrible intuitive eater. Just to inform you all.
That shits a struggle.

Im also still in love with the first guy I ever loved.
F*ck.

Boyfriend over for dinner

Tonight we had my boyfriend of almost 2 years, Zane, over for dinner. It wasnt a big deal, he comes over every now and then. But hes been up in Santa Barbara at college for a long time and hes on spring break right now, so it was nice to have him over.

We made perogies (the only time hes ever eaten them is with us, weird, Ive always eaten perogies!), ravioli (cuz my stepdad doesnt eat perogies), asparagus (my boyfriend loves veggies! what a great guy! haha), and a huge ball of bread we got at the store today. Oh, and I made a fabu salad with the help of my mom. We love experimenting with salad, but we made our classic fav salad tonight….lettuce, red onion, tomatoes, gorgonzola cheese (moms fav cheese), walnuts, and for the dressing we just throw in some olive oil, lemon juice, and salt and pepper. Fab! My favorite part might have to be the walnuts. I just love walnuts. I could eat a whole jar of them. I love them best in my oatmeal!!!!

 So….I call these crack chips. They are triscuits in the garlic flavor. We just bought them last night, I almost ate the whole bad. I had to set this bowl near the couch with my boyfriend and stepdad, and made them eat them! I had enough last night. But I didnt set it down before I had just one more

This is the asparagus tower, before we cooked them. Yum, asparagus!

This is my plate. Im addicted to ketchup, and I dont care who knows it!!! I put it on everything. EVERYTHING. It is Gods gift, and I refuse to ignore it. I had a ton of salad, my 5 or 6 asparagus stalks, 2 or 3 ravioli, and 3 perogies. And my piece of bread with butter on the side. I went back for another half of bread, more salad, and I think 2 more ravioli.

This is our yummy salad! Look at that! Wowowewa.

The day before Easter, I told my dad I wanted to do Lent. Well….what good is giving something up for a day?! My daddy told me that we should do our own lent, so we decided to start the day after Easter, considering we were having hot cross buns on Easter, and we decided to give up sweets. Now…that doesnt mean all sugar, because then I couldnt have my beloved ketchup, and he couldnt have his beloved muffins! It pretty much means cookies, brownies, cake, pie…stuff like that. Last night I made brownies for my family, they wanted some and IM the designated baker, and it was so hard to resist, they kept raving about how good they were!!! Ahhhhh! But Im thinking it will (maybe) help me to lose weight, it will (hopefully) make me feel better because Im putting less sugar and crap into my body (I like sugar and crap….), and it will just be nice to know I can NOT eat them when I want to. I just wanted to participate in it for once….whatever. So, Ive been eating stuff after dinner, but not dessert stuff.

Tonight, while my mom and stepdad ate apple turnovers and my boyfriend had a mini cupcake, I had one of my new TLC pumpkin spice flax granola bars. Not usually my go to dessert, but we just bought them today and it was a good time to try them. Man oh man they’re good. I love pumpkin and pumpkin spice, and these smelt just like pumpkin pie. They were really good! Not a very good dessert, cuz it wasnt sweet, but Im glad theyre good. Then I had another huge slice of bread with butter. What can I say, carbs are my favorite food.

Ive been drinking a lot of diet tea and diet coke to try to stop munching, but I want to go back for more! ahhhhhhhh.

Off to watch Americas Best Dance Crew, and do my nightly exercises!

Ciao, bellas <3

Booooo

So, I feel shitty. Am I allowed to say shitty here? Ah, its my blog, Ill do what I please.

I just have not been very….together lately.

My dad and I are doing ‘lent’, or, since we started the day after it ends, Im calling it ‘fent’. Fake lent. We gave up sweets. No cookies, brownies, cake, pie…anything like that. Im also trying to give up peanut butter. Binge food. But I had some today. I had a lot of it today. Like I said, binge food.

I just cant lose weight. My body refuses to lose weight from my stomach and arms. They’re chubby. CHUBBY, I say. I dont care what anyone else says. I dont. They dont have to wake up and look in the mirror at this stomach that refuses to stop looking like a dang tire around my waist.

But wait, Im the fastest girl on my track team. I can run for a very long time at a pretty fast pace. Should my weight matter? No, apparently Im healthy. Thats the sane side of me talking. Because while I run, Im embarassed, actually embarassed to be out there with my stomach sticking out of my shirt!!! If someone wanted to race me, I could whup their butt, but I would envy them if they were skinnier than I.

How bad is that? I eat healthy. For the most part. But there are many women out there who eat all day long (even though its insanely healthy), indulge every now and then, dont exercise some days, and still get to be skinny! I cant eat 3 meals a day and lose weight. I just cant.

This sucks.

Couple days in Grover Beach!

I had a lot of fun in Grover beach! Visited with my friend, ate A LOT, I got my first spray tan! Hahaha, I look kinda orange, but it was fun to experience, Ive always wanted to try it. We also went to see a movie, and he manages a gym so we took a spinning class and did weights. It was pretty cool! Unfortunately I have to be somewhere early tomorrow morning, so I had to come back tonight

My train was delayed an hour! And its not like I had to wait for it, I was ON it and we were stopped in the NO WHERE for an hour!!! It was so painful. And of course, my ipod dies, then my camera is running low, and my phone runs so low that when I pull into the station and try to call my stepdad it dies! Good thing I had money for a payphone. Geeeez! But, I made it home safe

I didnt get everything I ate, but I got some. Here it is (not in order)!:

These are some munchies we got to eat last night. I ate a lot of the trail mixes, there were so good. Then some more trail mix on the train.

This was my pizza I got to eat on the train ride home. It had linguica, sundried tomatoes, and mushrooms. I ate a lot of it, Im not gonna lie. I love the dough.

Eggs benny! Yum yum yum. And I am addicted to ketchup, so there it is all over the plate. Deeeelish.

Cowboy cookies! I had the one on the left, my fave, oatemeal raisin. And John had the one on the right, white chocolate chip macadamia nut. I had a bite. Yummy!

Beautiful fiestaware cups! I love the yellow, my favorite color

This was halibut sauteed in sour cream and salsa….OMG who thought that would be good?! Not me! But it WAS! It also had a later of oil/butter that i could see. I ate most of it.

Milk with my cowboy cookies!

And a picture of me!

Now Im eating my dinner: a bowl of oatmeal, a huge piece of sourdough toast, and an orange. I really am so full I cant finish this stuff, which is AMAZING for me. Im gonna finish the orange for sure. I think thats it.

See ya tomorrow! Ciao!

‘A’ in Econ day

So…I got an A on my first Econ text, whootwhoot!!! I still have 4 more lessons to go, but thats ok. No school till Monday!

I didn’t get any pictures today BUT….I looked up pictures online of stuff I ate! So you have visuals….even though its not my food

Started with a sprouted wheat cinnamon raisin bagel with butter (the pictures isn’t sprouted wheat, but MY bagel was, and it was. so. good.):

With about 2 cups of coffee with milk. No picture, you know what coffee and milk looks like

And then I had a bowl of granola:

I WISH that was my bowl of granola, that looks delicious!

I love granola, thats a food that I have no control around. Like french fries.

Then I went to the gym and did the stairmaster for 20 minutes, the elliptical with no arms for 10 minutes, ran a mile, and did some weights. I was actually supposed to run 2 miles but my tummy started hurting. Boo. Im wearing my pedometer and Im almost to 10,000 steps and its only 1:30, nice!

Anywho…later today Im off to Grover Beach to visit my friend. I will still take pictures and try to upload them on his computer. Ill be gone till wednesday night, but Ill be posting!

Ciao!

Unrotated pictures!!!

Lets start with last night. My day ended with me going to Dennys with some people to get dessert. I had a razzdango (sprite with flavoring) and a banana split. Did I need them? No. Should I have had them? No. Oh well. I try to just restart after every bad day.

Im going to try not to have any desserts for awhile unless theyre extremely worth it, because Ive been eating ’stupid’ desserts lately that arent worth it, and Ive been having them almost every night! So Im going to try not to.

Heres my banana split and razzdango.:

 

My daddy had apple crisp, which is one of my fav. desserts. Yum!

Onto today…I woke up late and got a late start to my day, and had a horrible eating sched. Too bad. This happens sometimes.

I woke up and went to the gym, ran 3 miles, and did some weights. Then I went straight to the movies with my dad and friend. We saw Funny Games, and I LOVED IT! I love movies like that.

All I had to eat (until dinner time) was my small popcorn at the movies. Which is why this may look like a lot of food. But….I hadnt had any food except for popcorn!

For dinner, some of us went to Gelsons (where my bro works) during his ‘lunch break’. I had wheatberry salad (delicious!), fruit, a whole wheat roll, and veggie lasagna. I also had a bite of my dads lobster salad and lobster bisque (sooooooo insanely fab).

The first picture has my fruit and veggie lasagna, the second has my roll and wheatberry salad. And my diet coke

Then I got home and made a parfait with: lemon yogurt, walnuts, homemade ganola (thanks Jenna!), cherries, pineapple, and a little peanut butter on the spoon. Then I added some frosted wheaties, too. I have no control.

Why cant I rotate my pictures? Strange.

Then I refilled my glass with water, and had 2 pieces of toast. Oh well, at least I promised myself no dessert, and I havnt had any.

I will probably go back for more toast, and maybe an orange. Maybe a glass of milk.

Weight loss will have to wait another day.At least Im weaning myself off sugar. Score.

Can someone tell me how to rotate my pictures? Can I do it here, or do I have to do it before? And how?

Thanks!

Chocolate Death Cake

Sorry for the lack of spaces between paragraphs. Something seems to have gone awry! Ahhh.

So…last night went….ok. I had cake. It was Chocolate Grand Marnier cake (which Ive nicknamed Chocolate Death Cake…as all chocolate cake should be named). After the first slice, I was FULL. But does that stop me? No. Then Harry opened his presents, and my brother got him cheese, and my friend Rita got him a cheese cutter/plate set. So what do we do next? Eat cheese! Haha, I only had 2 slices of some hard cheese. It was really good though. Oh, also 2 cups of tea with milk. At that point, I didnt care about what I ate anymore. Stupid.

Then came time to leave. But, wait! Harry wanted to send some cake home with people! So who offers to take some off his hands (only because Im such a good friend)…? Yup, me. That cake didnt even make it to the freeway, I was all over it. I ate ALMOST the whole slice then I put it away. Then I remembered I wanted to take a picture, took it out, took the picture, then ate more of it. I was literally laughing while I was eating more, thinking ‘wow, you have no control’. Oh well. It wasn’t even amazing cake. It almost was like pudding or mousse, neither of which I like the consistency of. Booooo!

Anyway…..I took a picture but had trouble uploading. It was a picture of the crust, anyway, considering I ate almost all of it.

This morning I had grits…then more grits….then oatmeal….then some more of everything Im too embarassed to post because it was such a massive amount of food.

Oh, and I had coffee (that I got a picture of….only good thing about my morning? My ‘I love you” cup). With whole milk. Its all my dad has. I didn’t drink all of it. Barely half. It got cold while I was eating everything in sight.

Now Im sitting here enjoying myself a diet coke (its like crack to me), and a glass of water.

I feel huge, I feel sick.

I dont ever ever ever ever ever want to eat that much again!

Oh wait, I said that last time…..

This is too much to handle.

I stole my mothers camera. I’ll be uploading pictures very soon.

First post!

Hello!

After many weeks lurking around other food blogs, I decided to start my own!

I dont think it will reach super-foodblog-star status, buuuuuuut its still nice to be a part of all this!

A little info:

I have a problem with eating. Actually….more than one. Its extremelly hard to have a problem with something that you face every day! Y’know? Anyway, I created this and even if I dont get a lot of feedback, it may help me.

And its super fun!

I really hope to post a lot of pictures, thats the best part!

Tonight Im at my friend Harrys house cuz its his b’day. My dad, brother, and I made BBQ pulled pork sandwiches, cole slaw, and baked beans. Omgahhhhyum. Our friend Rita also brought cake!!!! Blahhh. We’ll see how things go

Glad to be here